Mom.
Someone who knows almost everything about us. Even the lies we're trying to tell or the things we're trying to hide.
So on Wednesday night, Kiqi played me a song which reminds me of Kevin. Its the song he played for me when were once a pair. I didn't know I was gonna cry though. It just suddenly hit me and there I go, crying in silent while on the phone with her. I knew Kiqi knew I was crying but I have the difficulties to admit that. I just barely admit it to people. Its true. And Kevin always hated that.
But yeah, crying in silence really hurts. Its like, you're want to stop crying but you just can't because you just can't. bahaha. i don't really know how to put this crying in silent feelings in words. But i know it hurts. Then finally after asking me a few times and after denying Kiqi that I am not crying, she hung up. She text me later and asked me to go to sleep. Then I tried to go to sleep, but I just can't. End up crying even harder. But I didn't cry myself out. I really didn't. It was really in silent mode. And I have no idea how mom found out I was crying. She came to my room and  turned the light on. She asked me what happened. But I was too weak to tell her so I just get my blanket and cover my body without saying a single word.
See? I told you. This isn't the first time this kind of situation happens. She knows what is happening. She knows when I am in love or when I am not. She knows everything because she went through all these before. She just don't wanna share her teenager life and I don't know why.

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