I believe all of us have different kind of relationship with our mum. Some are bestfriend, some are enemy, some they never bother taking care of each other, some didn't even care and etc etc.

To me, mom and I, we're like friends. Just friends. I know she cares a lot for me. So do I. But somehow, I just don't know how to show her how I care for her, how much I love her and all that. Its just awkward. Because we started to get close to each other since I was in form 1. Which is when she just quit her job and start to work as full time housewife.

If I tell you ma doesn't understand what I want, what I need, what I like, what I hate, its lies. Because she knows everything about me. She knows me well. Maybe its me. Maybe I'm the one who hasn't open up my heart for her. Maybe I should start doing so like, now. But I would want to, you see. Its just that, its kind of awkward to make an action right now. If only she was a full time housewife and take care of me since I was in kindergarten instead of get me a maid to take care of me, maybe things won't be like this. MAYBE. But it doesn't matter right now. All I want ma to know is that I love her with all my heart.

I admit, I'm useless enough for not being able to help her doing houseworks. The lazyness in me. Ugh. I so should join PLKN to change myself from bad to good. Hopefully I got chosen, amen! Maybe this could help me to change my attitude. (although i know if i truly want to change, i will. its all about the desire in you)

But if I have the guts to tell her this, that I love her so so much with all my heart and I'm so sorry for all my wrong doings and bad words I have said. Mom, I love you.

Bong
xx

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