I was a volunteer for National Service (PLKN) because I wasn't the chosen ones at the first place. So mom applied for me and to be honest, yes, I was mad because I was working with Anakku (a baby shop) and the salary is ok to me. 

Here I am back on Blog again just to update you guys about something. It happened long time ago but I just don't feel like going on blog (because I can) Ha. So, I am in a relationship. Yes, with the guy I talked about on my previous post.

Maybe God sees me getting butterflies that it hurts, maybe He sees that I've been liking him for so long, maybe He hears my prayers. Hahaha. You know this may sound silly but I did prayed to God so that He will make us one (You know what I mean) or the least that we can be is bestfriend and yes we are both couple and best friend right now.
That is why I kept telling everybody to pray when they need something because Jesus will hear and answer they though it may takes some time.

I can say that I'm happy being with him at the moment despite all of the troubles couples may face in every relationship. He is simply lovely and I truly hope that this relationship won't end because I can't promise if I am able to bear with another broken heart. So, I hope that God will bless our relationship until the very last day our breath.

Lots of love,
Melizsa.

Mwahahahah you actually believed that, don't you?

How I wish it was true.
So, here it is. To your surprise, I was just starting saving money. Yep, it was one of the hardest thing to do because I always spend my money on food and I never success saving them. As in, I always happened to take the money out to buy some stupid stuff like food...... Oh wait, food isn't stupid. Haha.

And I finally know how to save. First, you've got to have a reason to save. For example, you wanna get a new phone, iPhone, iPad, clothes or presents for your friends. Anything will do. But you have to make sure that you really want that something. Or else you'll go "oh I can get that next time". See? That's what I said when I planned to save for something that I don't really need before.
So next, if your parents or whosoever give you money, always remember not to spend them all before you spend it. You know what I mean? Set it in your mind not to spend too much on buying things and don't bother buying unnecessary things like earrings, necklace, or whatever. Get those only when you have party or whatsoever occasions alright? As much as possible, spend your money on only food but try not to be greedy and buy whatever that is delicious and overpriced.
Most importantly, don't follow your friends. If you're from a middle class family (as in not too poor, or not too rich) just don't try to fit in. Be who you are and don't try to be someone who you are not, someone you don't even know. Don't please your friends. They don't promise your heaven. So, like, when they get McD, you get whatever that is cheaper than that. Try to spend less and at the end of the day, you will see that all that you have sacrificed will worth it. I promise.

So, good luck!
Love in Christ

Um, I don't really know when is the actual Fathers Day but Happy Fathers Day to my dad and my dad. Lol I mean my biological dad and my foster dad! Thank you thank you thank you for being such an awesome dad and for fulfilling my needs.

I know its hard to earn money and its hard to give. But thank you so much for your loving heart and your willingness to spend your money on us. You guys may be wondering why am I saying things like this. Because for your information, there are dads out there who don't give money to their family and yeah, just ignore 'em like that. Because they don't have that loving heart. Because when we worked so hard for something and then at the end, we had to share the things that we earned so hard with others. Its never easy to give and share them.You know what I mean?

Yeah, and I would like to thank my dads for everything that they have sacrificed for me. Time, cash and all that. Thank you for raising me up until now and thank you so much for your amazing love for me. I know I am not a perfect daughter and I have sinned against you both in so many ways. And yet, you guys forgive me over and over again and keep loving me like there's no tomorrow. (Really? Lol) God bless you both for your kindness alright! I love you both from the bottom of my heart!

So for those out there, appreciate your dad no matter if they are bad or good to you. You can always change things from bad to good with prayers. That's the only way to connect to God because God is only prayers away. And always remember, faith is needed in prayers. You don't expect God to fulfill your needs when you pray only once. Nothing works without faith. Alright? Keep knocking and keep asking and keep believing.

Lots of loves & Happy Fathers Day!
Mel Bong Bong




So, I met this one guy at my friend's house this year. I didn't really notice him at first but his elder brother because he kept looking at me and laughed and smiled and all that. (And later I found out that he is that kind of guy that smiles and look at people a lot and its pretty normal)

I started to go to my friend's house very often because we have this study group thing four times a week or more so we meet a lot. Then, when I got to see Johnny (fake name) and slowly get to know more about him from my friend and then I started to feel like I have this feeling for him. By the way, he is cute alright. But of course I didn't tell my friend that I have a crush on him because she is actually his sister lol and I didn't want her to know. Because she'll tell him and make fun of me and yeah.

And I am so happy to know that he's older than me but we're both form five. Teehee!

You know what so different about him from other male friends I know? I'll tell you about it.

He does his homework and revise every night. 
No joke. Because I go to his house almost every single day so I know. After my study group with my friends, I went down to the living room waiting for my mom to pick me up and he's there doing his homework. I thought he was just acting or showing off at first. (Yeah I judge book by its cover a lot) But no, he does that almost every night and his sisters told me that he will always get his books after he woke up from afternoon nap. I mean, maybe some of those guys out there do this too but they're not those I know. So I am impressed and that makes me like him even more.

He lives a godly life.
I'm not saying that he never makes mistakes or whatsoever but he lives a godly life. He prays and goes to church a lot. He is one of the church active members and most importantly, he reads Bible. Some people including me think its quite unusual for a guy to do these things because teenagers usually think of fun and fun and fun. But now, he opens my eyes and made me realized that not all teenagers are the same and I totally changed the way I think and all that now.
And btw, I once saw him wrapping his Bible nicely and I somehow think its cute how he knows how to take care of things properly.

He put his family first.
Like I said, unlike any other male friends I know. He puts his family before anything else. I mean, of course after God. Most of the guys I know put their girlfriend or their friends first. But he doesn't. He spends almost all of his time with his family. You might think, whats so cool about spending time with family? Friends understand us most because we're the same age and bla bla bla. But he doesn't even have problems finding someone to share problems with. He has sisters and brothers and cousins and they are all supporting. They are open and understanding. Thats why I love spending time with my friends. Because they gave me good advice and I always refer to her whenever I have problems. She knows what exactly to say to make me feel better. So yeah. Hehe.

By the way, he plays football/futsal but sadly he supports Liverpool instead of Manchester United. Meow.

And my friends told me that he has a lot of "fans". Well why not? He's so good looking. But meh.

Gah, I just hope that I will just get over Kevin asap because it has been almost one and a half year after we broke up. I just want to be happy.

God bless everyone!

Greeetingggggg fellas!


Friends? I don't even have real friends in real life. The word friends has already lose its meaning. "Friends" talk about each other behind their back and all that.

I used to mind so much when people tell me someone hate me and all that. I used to get sad and cry and all that when people told me they hate me. But now, I don't. I expected all these even before it happens. Why? Because I know, I am no longer the same person I used to be. I don't do what I used to do anymore.

My friends and I used to get along last time but now, I tend to feel like we all don't have the chemistry anymore. I know they all hate me. I know they all talk bad about me behind my back. I know they all are trying to get rid of me. If any of you read this, yeah, I've got your point.

And to you who posted status about me, here's what you need to know. I'm sorry if what I said to Aileen is bad but I can guarantee with all my heart that I so don't hate her. I don't hate her voice. I don't hate her looks or whatever. They are all jokes. Just like what we did to Eurika. Of course, I don't blame you because yes the way I said it to her on her face is just ouch. But I wouldn't have said it to her face if I really hate her. You clearly don't understand me yet. And one thing you really need to know. I talk about God everywhere I go but that doesn't mean I am perfect. That doesn't mean I won't sin no more. That doesn't mean I will be as holy as the Almighty God and makes no mistakes. NO. I will still make mistakes. I will still commit sins and all that. So don't expect me to be perfect because I am not. Remember that always, friend.

I know when the school starts later, I will have no one to back me up. Everyone will go by your side and I will be left alone. That is alright. Don't that happen to me all the time? Don't people leave me every time? So I pretty much have got used to this kind of situation. Yes, I don't know what will I do or whom will I go to after school reopens later, but for now, I don't want to worry about that because I know God will never leave nor forsake me and He will be with me all the time and its true what they said "People come and go, Jesus came and stay"

So you see, friends nowadays are just....I don't know. I admit, I do talk about my friends sometimes and I hate it when it happens. Like I said, the word friends started to lose its meaning now and its hard to find that one true friend who will stick with you through your good and hard times. And when you make one small mistake, they will remember it forever and forget what good things that you have done.
This is just too typical to be true.
But I know God is with me.
All the time,
So peace be with all of you,

love in Christ.

So, I just want to talk about this very charming guy here & his name is Ikrima whom is a teacher teaching Chemistry in our school. He is so charming, cute, hot, smart and too perfect to be true. We, Teresians are so so so crazy over him. He can sing so well and every time when he smiles, goodness! My organs melt. HAHAHHAHA kidding.

Thank You Jesus for sending Miss Nancy & her family into my life.

He sent them into my life because He wants me to go near to Him. He sent them to me because He wants me to be saved from the fire of hell. He sent them to me because He wants me to go to heaven. He sent them to me because He wants me to be happy forever and ever.

Praise the Lord because He never give up on me & never stop running after me. Praise the Lord because He loves me and He wants to be with me.

After knowing Miss Nancy & her family, my faith started to increased once again. I am close to Jesus once again and this time, in Jesus' name, I pray so that Jesus will never let me walk away again no matter what happens. He made so many wonderful things in my life. He makes miracles and He renewed me & be with me through good and bad times.

What have changed since I got closed to Jesus...

1. My tongue piercing
   This was one of the hardest thing for me to do because I really liked my tongue piercing because I thought I look cool with that. This I admit. I pierced my tongue for the sake of fashion and my friends think its cool too. But after I got close to Jesus, I have the feeling of taking it off but not so ready yet until one day, my uncle committed suicide. Which I think, one of God's ways of telling me that no one lives forever so don't take tomorrow for granted and I immediately took my piercing off. Because I'm afraid if I might die later and I will have no time to repent and hell is where I go.
   Besides, other reason for me to took it off was because Miss Nancy told me that "hurting our body is just like hurting God's body" and I don't want to hurt my God so I took it off. I hope Jesus is happy with my action. And now, when I look back, I hated all those thing I did that hurt Jesus. I hate my sins.
2. Smoking life
   To your surprise, I do smoke. Well actually, I did and I was an addict but now I quit. Praise the Lord. I didn't realize I've quit at first though. That day after school, one of my friends smoked in front of me and I was feeling really weird how come I don't even ask for ciggar because I used to do so. But now I feel like I don't even want to see it or touch it or smell it. From that moment I know, God has made me a better person.
3. Cursing life
   Thank You thank You thank You so much and praise You o Lord for this amazing change in me. I have completely stopped cursing. I have completely stopped using all the bad words. No more the usage of the word F. Yabedabedu. 

Hello everyone! It has been awhile since I posted here. Hehe.

Anyway, this post will be about my dad. Yep. My dad.

So, my dad is back in Malaysia. It has been weeks since he's home and now he is sick. I'm not so sure what is the disease called but all I know is that somewhere around his neck and his thigh, there were lymph found.. Bad isn't it?

My dad is an amazing person. He is good looking, funny, adventurous, sporting but there's something mutual between me and my dad, hot tempered. We both tend to get angry really fast and not to mention, very impatient in everything we do. I really want to get rid of this bad attitude because I want my dad to see good changes in me. I want my dad to know and believe in Christ.

No, my dad is not a pagan/atheist, he just don't believe in Christ. This is why I want my attitude to open his eyes and make him believe in our Lord, Jesus Christ through me. I have been praying for him since I was 14 (when I first know Jesus) and gave up praying for my dad because I walked away from God. I never bother reading Bible, I never pray sincerely (before meal, after meal, before sleep and etc). I only pray when I am in trouble and when Jesus answered my prayers, I stopped praying. This is why my dad is still an unbeliever until now.

Just like what Miss Nancy told me "before you plan to change others, change yourself first". True that. Before I want to make my dad a believer, I have to show him how Jesus changed my life and all the good things that He has done into my life. So I will continuously to be faithful to God and pray until miracle happens, until God answers my prayers, until God opens my dad's heart and until my dad finally believes in Jesus Christ. I will not give up again because I want my whole family to be saved.

So to all Christians out there who read this post, I beg all of you to please pray for my dad so that he will open his heart for Jesus one day. Your prayers and thoughts are very appreciated. God bless.

Love in Christ.

So, I dream of Booma and I returned back that night. He was asking for return and told me that he wasn't serious about asking for break up the other day and I said yes. So we got back with each other and I woke up laughing at myself thinking about it the next day. Haha.
Even though we don't talk to each other now (I have no idea why we stopped talking though) but I still think of him sometimes and I always wonder how is he and all that. But of course I don't have feelings for him anymore. You know, just missing a long lost friend :)

KR,

If you're wondering what's going on in my life now. I'll tell you what. Life's good. My life has always been good even though there's ups & downs. After broke up with Booma, my social life has changed. I used to focus on only one guy whether I'm single or when I'm in a relationship. But now, I have crush on guy every where ever I go. Sounds like playgirl to you eh? Yeah I'm sure I care less about what you think about me.


I miss all the good times when I read back what I posted here. Gosh, we lost the relationship and even friendship. I miss you much. I bet you don't. I bet you don't even want to think about me a bit. I bet you hate me. I bet you don't even want to hear my name :(

It has been centuries since I last post here.
Oh it seems like I said this all the time. Haha. Nyway. Here goes my life.

Hmmmmmmmm, well I sort of lost this best friend few days ago. I mean, we were close for few moths already and he was one of those who listen to my problems and everything. But now he has got a girlfriend. He said its alright if we text everyday like we used to. But the thing is, its not okay with me. I'm being considerate because I felt that. Felt the pain and jealousy where your boyfriend talks to his best girl friend all the time and you feel so dfjasdkfljas. I can't explain but yeah, I hate that feeling. So I don't want anyone else to feel what I once felt and hate me for that. I have more than enough enemies right now, hahaha. But of course, life goes on. Even if we still text now, all our topics would be about her. Its not that I'm jealous or whatever. No, but, if we talk about her all the time, when is it going to be my turn to tell you what is going on in my life? Right? I need a friend whom I can tell things too. I need someone to listen to me too. That is why I stopped replying your texts. Because I respect your relationship.

Another thing is that, I can't wait to quit Leo Club! Argh, sorry to say but it really gives me a whole lot pressure become one this year. School works, tuition, softball and I had to send report every month. I just have too much to handle. *Sighhh.

Mmm and I miss him KB. Its sad that we're no longer friends. I mean, yeah.. He's such a great friend and I don't know why we're not talking anymore. Meh,that is why I hate being into a relationship. I lost people after every break ups. F- that man. Ughhh:( I wish he knows how sorry I am for everything I have done and said. And maybe if we have the chance to be friends again, I will treasure our friendship. But, I guess we both are going to stay this way forever:'))

And as for KR, I kinda think that I've moved on. I don't know. I just missed being with him, missed talking to him and all that:)

So for my studies, heeeeelllllllll yeah I improved a WHOLE LOT after taking tuition. Ffuuu I should have go for tuition ages ago. Meh, nyway. My teacher's brother is so daaaaaaaaarn cute. Hehe. I tend to look at him secretly when he's not looking. And when he smiles, aaaaaaaaaawwww, I won't doubt it. Super adorable!!:D Hehehe.

I guess thats all for now, will update again soon, I hope. Haha.

Lots of loves
Bong
xx

This girl up here ^ is one of the best person I've ever met. She's going to get her result tomorrow. I can guarantee, straight A's. Why? Because all her brain cells are connected and PMR is easy pie. Okay, lets go straight to the point. Do you see my new updated blog? She's the one who made it. Thanks to you, miss-someone-who-keeps-flattering-herself. Haha. Okay, I wish and I pray so that this very young lady will get straight A's for her PMR because I believe she has worked really hard for it where she actually spent less time on Facebook, Blog, Twitter, Tumblr and Friendster. LOL jk, Friendster is now a game site. My point is, how many of us can actually do it? Almost none. I totally regretted not de-activating my Facebook when I'm having my PMR last year. What was I thinking? Ffff- my life, man. It was such a lost. I could use those spare time to study even more and get even better result rather than posting shit on Facebook. Gaaaaaah. Lesson learnt. Upcoming SPM, if I ever do that again, I probably should feed my life to the zombies. Uhhh, alright, enough about me. This was supposed to be a post about her. Bahaha silly me.
Uhm, well, I must say that she is the best cousin I've ever have. Well, not to say the rest is bad or not good enough or whatever. But Chrisanthea and I, we both have Chemistry in us. We always laugh at almost nothing but everything seems funny when we're together. Lets say, she's at the other corner while I'm at the other corner and someone fell down all of a sudden. First thing we will do is to look at each other, when we are connected already, next thing we will do is laugh. Ugly as it sound, we barely care about other people. Of course, sometimes, we had fights. We happened to ignored each other and all that. Funny how after few hours, we'll eventually be fine. Why? Because everything is funny when we're together and that funny thing always broke the awkwardness between us and here we are, friends again. Like kids isn't it? Hahaha.
Yeah, maybe we are childish, but we also have our mature part when it comes to gossiping in the toilet bathing together. We always have serious conversation. The three of us, Applo (her sis) Chris and me. Well of course I don't mean we gossip around and shit, its just that we talk about things that happened lately and all those. Ahhh, how I miss the old days. Wish we're never far apart from each other. But I guess that's what makes this "cousin-ship" stronger. Hahaha. And I've always believe that distance doesn't ruin a relationship, it depends on the trust, on the faithfulness, on how strong your love towards each other is (;


To infinity & beyond!
Me, the Bong Bong.
xx

This 2011 year is ending soon. I'm eager to know what's gonna happen next year, tee hee. But one thing I know I'll surely face is SPM. I can't believe SPM is like, less in a year? And I haven't really actually start studying. Only go through some topics which I really like. Luckily my dad registered me tuition (I probably will improve, at least a little, I hope) And SPM will be the only thing, I will be pay extra attention on. 

I hate knowing its holiday and there's nothing i can do to make my holiday a better than last year's. i still remember, last year, i went back to Bintulu and had a super duper blast with them - Chrisanthea and others. Haha, apparently she's the only who has a Blog among my cousins, so yeah. This time, my holiday, my schedule may be packed. by what? Leo's activities! Woohoo! Me likey! For the month of November, life's gonna be just as suck as hell. Because I've got nothing to do other than sleep, text, and face laptop. Grr! But when December starts, my life's gonna be superb! Mwahahah! I have meetings with Lions, camps, and other activities such as having charity christmas dinner which I hope our principle with approve me. I know, this dinner is going to be a huge project and I will face many obstacles and everything. But by God's grace, I'm gonna make it happen. Teehee!

Well, hello there everyone.

There are so many that have changed since the last time I posted here. True story. Life has changes so much. So do I. And other things.


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